There was a time in my life when I was passionate about everything in my life. It was honestly the happiest I have ever been. These past few years I have whine complained and threw a pity party for my self twelve thousand times over. Well I am done with that!!! Recently I have been feeling an overwhelming source of passion. I mean real passion, passion for life and everything hat is around you. I feel like I am getting back to who I truly am. Back to the person that the man I married fell in love with. The person that wouldn't be held back because someone didn't like what they were doing. This is me! If you don't like it tough!!! Suck it up Princess, as we say at work.
Tonight I watched a show on TLC called "Crazy, Sexy, Cancer." I know it sounds a little out there, but it really kind of brought things into prospective. The woman in it used to be an actress, until she found out she was diagnosed. She didn't let it take over her life. She knew she was going to beat it from the get go. SO she did everything she could. Never once lost her hair, and only a few times did she let herself feel bad about it. It really helped me along on my way back to being my passionate about life self. If I truly want to beat PCOS I need to do something about it. It isn't just going to go away by taking 1500mgs of Metformin and all of my Vitamins everyday. I have to do something about it! I have to get up off my lazy butt and get to work! I do want kids someday and if I really want to make that happen I need to clean up my body, get back into shape! Today I am setting goals! I am losing ten pounds every month until I get back to my normal self. Itr is interesting when I meet knew people I always feel like I have to explain why I look the way I do. In my head this is not who I am! I am a thin person! I have been my whole life until now. Why should I let PCOS take over??? I shouldn't! This is my life and I am in charge! I take action today! I will not let it ruin my life and my marriage! PCOS is not me nor will I let it consume me any longer. If you knew me then you know who I was, I have faded, but I am coming back and I will come back strong.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Spritual High
I love Sundays. It has really been a long time since I have been able to say that, but today I can. You see as you all know I live in small town Idaho and it isn't all it's cracked up to be. When the Tall Kid and I were first married we moved up here and went to the regular student ward we were assigned to. After a few weeks of church the Bishop calls me into his office and asked me to be the Primary President. I accepted, knowing that I would not get the opportunity to meet anyone in the ward and that either myself or the children would be dead by the end of it. So for almost a year I went to church begrudgingly and not wanting to be there at all! I didn't know anyone, the few supposed friends we had never said a word to us at church and I didn't want to be there.
So after much discussion we decided to move. Although it is just a block or two from our first apartment I feel like I am in a totally different city. We have the most amazing ward. I don't want to brag, but really this is the best ward I have ever been in and I am afraid to say that I think it may be the best we will ever be in. We have an amazing bishopric, these guys will truly bend over backwards for you if you need them to. The Elder's Quorum President, one of our good friends, will not stop until the job is done. I mean heck he always invites the new people to his house for dinner on sunday, just so they feel like they belong. Amazing guy really. Our Relief Society President another amazing person, her husband is in the bishopric and they have recently become some of our closest friends. In fact we are having them over for FHE tomorrow. It is just a great ward to be in. I wish you could all experience a ward like this sometime in your life. It is one place that I actually feel like I belong.
I had to teach the Relief Society lesson today, and it couldn't have gone better. It was on Neil Andersen's conference talk, "It's true isn't it? Then what else matters?" It was an excellent opportunity to share stories with each other about the trials we face as young married Latter-Day Saint women. I feel so close to everyone in our ward although I may now know everyone personally I love them and would do anything for any of them. If any of you have not heard or read this talk I would suggest that you do, even if you have read it and then read President Hinckley's April 1973 talk, "It's true isn't it?" I got so much out of it and I Can't help but think that my trials are nothing to others who struggle so much and yet will give up everything for the gospel. Today I feel truly blessed to be in the ward that I am. I know I complain alot about the place I live, but I know that I can always go to church on Sunday and feel the love from the Sisters and Brothers of our Ward family. I know that the gospel of Jesus Christ is true. I have struggled with it in the past but I know now without a doubt that it is true, and that is what truly matters.
So after much discussion we decided to move. Although it is just a block or two from our first apartment I feel like I am in a totally different city. We have the most amazing ward. I don't want to brag, but really this is the best ward I have ever been in and I am afraid to say that I think it may be the best we will ever be in. We have an amazing bishopric, these guys will truly bend over backwards for you if you need them to. The Elder's Quorum President, one of our good friends, will not stop until the job is done. I mean heck he always invites the new people to his house for dinner on sunday, just so they feel like they belong. Amazing guy really. Our Relief Society President another amazing person, her husband is in the bishopric and they have recently become some of our closest friends. In fact we are having them over for FHE tomorrow. It is just a great ward to be in. I wish you could all experience a ward like this sometime in your life. It is one place that I actually feel like I belong.
I had to teach the Relief Society lesson today, and it couldn't have gone better. It was on Neil Andersen's conference talk, "It's true isn't it? Then what else matters?" It was an excellent opportunity to share stories with each other about the trials we face as young married Latter-Day Saint women. I feel so close to everyone in our ward although I may now know everyone personally I love them and would do anything for any of them. If any of you have not heard or read this talk I would suggest that you do, even if you have read it and then read President Hinckley's April 1973 talk, "It's true isn't it?" I got so much out of it and I Can't help but think that my trials are nothing to others who struggle so much and yet will give up everything for the gospel. Today I feel truly blessed to be in the ward that I am. I know I complain alot about the place I live, but I know that I can always go to church on Sunday and feel the love from the Sisters and Brothers of our Ward family. I know that the gospel of Jesus Christ is true. I have struggled with it in the past but I know now without a doubt that it is true, and that is what truly matters.
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